I am amazed by what can happen in just 10 days. I have wished that the SUN didn't set , I could have used the extra light and warmth the last few days. It has been 10 days that have been emotionally draining, physically challenging and spiritually weakening. Since my last blog - ten days have gone by. A lot can happen in Just 10 Days!
On Monday we were allowed to return to our homes so we left the St. Regis hotel...but not until I received some very sad news that a good friend of mine here in Thailand had just been diagnosed with Breast Cancer. She and her husband wanted to meet with me and talk to me about my experience, she is the same age as I was when I first received my diagnoses. It was good to offer my personal insights, but reliving that year has always left me a little more reflective and emotional. My heart hurt for this young family.
Tuesday morning found just Laura and I packing for our four days in Siem Reap, Cambodia. Due to the flooding situation in Thailand Ron had decided not to come to Cambodia with Laura and I for October break, John was attending a rugby training camp so he would be staying as well. I check my email before I left for the airport and found out that the sports camp for John had been cancelled due to the flooding situation. I should have realized that things were going to get worse before they would get better...
Wednesday Laura and I went to Angkor Wat and watched the sunrise, and visited some other sites. (I will post a blog and pictures of our trip to Siem Reap and Angkor Wat at some future date and time) The flooding situation continued to worsen in Thailand.
By Thursday my four day trip to Cambodia was cut in half due to flooding issues at home. Coca Cola had decided to evacuate all the expat families again - this time it was going to be to Hua Hin, three hours south of Bangkok. Laura and I got the call to come back to Thailand - we had to cancel our tour guide, re book our flights and pack. Ron and John were going to meet us at the airport and we would be on our way south. In the midst of all the evacuation confusion I got an email from my parents, my dad had been diagnosed with a form of lung cancer. Which meant that he and my mom would not be coming to visit me in November as we had planned. My dad need to have special test done and treatment need to begin as soon as possible. Emotionally this was the straw that broke this camels back. I broke down in that hotel room in Cambodia and sobbed. My head hurt from crying, my heart hurt because of so many things at this point and my body was physically tired...and yet I had to get myself back to Thailand with in a few hours.
We arrived in Hua Hin and stayed in one hotel from Thursday October 27 to Sunday October 30th and then had to transfer to the Marriott, where I am currently. I had moved in and out of four hotels in two countries. in less then a week!
Day 8, Monday October 31 - Halloween was forgotten and we all tried desperately to log on to the internet, the cyber ghost must have been having a great time messing the internet connection , it is sporadic at best but on Halloween it was down right scary! Living overseas and away from family the internet is a life line and when it is severed you feel lost and frustrated. I wanted to talk to my dad, I wanted to hear his voice so that I would know that things were going to be okay.
November 1, the day my parents were set to arrive my emotions were close to the surface, I haven't been able to find a quiet location to really study my scriptures or even to pray - I like my alone time and I have not found much of it the last 10 days. Physically I have been running to try to keep my mind clear, but that day my body decided to run a fever instead and my body ached - along with my heart. I had planned for months for my parents to come and visit me and now that November had come, they were not. Emotionally, physically and spiritually I was worn out. I could do nothing but lay in bed with the dark curtains closed blocking out all the sunlight. I just wanted to go home.
Wednesday we learned that we would be staying here until Monday, November 7th with the possibility of staying another week. Coca Cola is taking good care of us, but I miss my home and the normalcy of life. I can't complain, even with the sad news, the moving around, the trips not taking place - I still have a home, family and friends. I faith in my Savior, Jesus Christ, and in His immense power to care for us even when it feels like the SUN isn't shining in our lives. It is He that is SHINING and it is He that will help us overcome all the obstacles that life throws in our path.
Today finds me realizing how much can change in such a short time, but then it also got me to thinking how much I could change in such a short time. I need to find some quiet time for myself, I need to talk to my dad and mom and tell them again how much I love them, I need to let my friends know that they are valued and appreciated, I need to exercise my mind as well as my body, I need to reflect upon the tender mercies in my life, I need to be happy with the family time I have- whether in person or though Skype, I need to remember for me, as a cancer survivor, that each day is a gift.
I have watched the sun set, and I have felt the darkness of night, especially the last ten days - but in the morning the sun will rise and I will be reminded again of all that I have in my life, and that I can make happen in Just 10 Days!